shit i keep forgetting to post what my new blog is aaargh im an idiot
it’s @caurae
go follow me there
the only attention im going to get is at my funeral
HMMMM THIS IS ####INTERESTING
APPARENTLY GREY OR WHATEVER THE FUCK TERRAEFORM GOES BY NOW DOESN’T FUCKING CARE ABOUT ANY SEMBLANCE OF TRUTH
WHAT?????
I REMEMBER HIM SAYING THAT HE’S A FUCKING ANGEL
NOT THAT HE WOULD LIE AND TWIST MY WORDS AROUND
I WAS JELAOUS BECAUSE I HAD A FUCKING CRUSH
AND I WAS AFRAID OF “STEALING HER AWAY” FROM THE PERSON SHE WAS DATING AT THE TIME
DONT PLAY COY, YOU INSENSITIVE, DISGUSTING ASSHOLE
AND DONT YOU DARE BRING MY GIRLFRIEND INTO ANYTHING EVER AGAIN
I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.
All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.
dunno if it even matters anymore bc there are so few strings holding on to me to keep me from not slitting my throat
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I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.
All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.
dunno if it even matters anymore bc there are so few strings holding on to me to keep me from not slitting my throat
(via jeancrocker-blog)
I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.
All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.
(via jeancrocker-blog)
I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.
All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.
(via jeancrocker-blog)
I remade my blog. Ask someone at @spread-love-everybody or the Skype group for it for my new URL, or if you know me personally, my Google Hangouts. I’d rather not have it spread, for reasons.
All I wanted to do is make people happy and help them, but nope. Can’t do that.
im gonna go to sleep
i might be better in the morning
i should talk to someone about this tbh
i wonder if swallowing glass would be an effective and fast way to die
It’d honestly cut your throat up to the point where no, it wouldn’t. And please, don’t kill yourself. Do you need to talk to a psychiatrist? I could give you the number of mine or the number of the suicide hotline [1(800)-273-8255] .
I know you mentioned an ex friend that’s been making your life shit and I know how shit’s been with the DWH/DWC thing. But I promise you, things do get better. You may find that you need to take a break from tumblr for a long bit. You do need to talk to a medical professional, as I know I’m not one, nor are a majority of your followers. (And please don’t contact psych students. I have plenty of friends who are but they might accidentally make things worse off.)
Know that you’re loved and cared about (I mean, I’m reblogging this hoping that you see that at least one person does). Know that you will beat this. Know that it’s okay to take a mental health/self care break if you need it. Just stay safe and don’t hurt yourself. Please.
if i tell my parents or my social worker, they wont believe me
if i call a hotline, theyll put me in the hospital. i cant go to the hospital because i have so much schoolwork i need to catch up on that i missed when i had my surgery in december
How do you know with assured certainty that they won’t? I didn’t know if my dad would be supportive of my wanting to seek out help for my depression, but upon telling him about it, he helped me obtain it. You don’t know for sure. (Note: While I don’t know your home situation, you can still try in most cases.)
And yeah, you’d be in the hospital, but you’d be alive! Alive and with people that can assist you! You can literally talk to the school and be all “I need my assignments because medical leave” or that you need modified assignments and generally they’ll help you out.
Don’t let your fears get in the way of you being safe and healthy and in one piece.
ive already gotten all the accomodations i can get
i have to take my finals because i was in recovery the week of the finals
i cant miss any more school
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i feel so isolated all the time
my parents are always pissed at me
my brother thinks that im retarded (his own words, mind you) and that i have no talent
my whole family knows im trans because my aunt couldnt keep a promise and everyone thinks im a freak
i have 2 irl friends and one of them barely talks to me
i need more than online friends because humans crave face-to-face interactions and i dont have that
i wonder if swallowing glass would be an effective and fast way to die
It’d honestly cut your throat up to the point where no, it wouldn’t. And please, don’t kill yourself. Do you need to talk to a psychiatrist? I could give you the number of mine or the number of the suicide hotline [1(800)-273-8255] .
I know you mentioned an ex friend that’s been making your life shit and I know how shit’s been with the DWH/DWC thing. But I promise you, things do get better. You may find that you need to take a break from tumblr for a long bit. You do need to talk to a medical professional, as I know I’m not one, nor are a majority of your followers. (And please don’t contact psych students. I have plenty of friends who are but they might accidentally make things worse off.)
Know that you’re loved and cared about (I mean, I’m reblogging this hoping that you see that at least one person does). Know that you will beat this. Know that it’s okay to take a mental health/self care break if you need it. Just stay safe and don’t hurt yourself. Please.
if i tell my parents or my social worker, they wont believe me
if i call a hotline, theyll put me in the hospital. i cant go to the hospital because i have so much schoolwork i need to catch up on that i missed when i had my surgery in december
(via mamamidnight)
I hate that mental disorders have turned into a competition. you cant discuss eating habits without someone saying how they survived off green tea for 3 weeks and weighed 4 stone. you can’t discuss your depression because another person has already tried to commit suicide 8 times and theyre only 12. you cant discuss self harm because you punch your leg till it turns purple whilst they slice their arm to the bone. you cant talk about addiction because someone else will talk about facing their crack addiction for 18 years. every god damn time you even come close to wanting to reach out you know theres no point because in other people’s eyes you’re never sick enough. there’s always someone worse off. that’s the problem with attitudes to mental health. this ‘oh suck it up you’re not as bad as me/them’ HAS to stop. you have no idea how much a problem affects a person because, okay it might seem like nothing to you but to them their entire world is breaking down and they just have to wait till they either figure it out on their own, or become so sick that people can’t deny it any more. and by then its usually too late.
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